Good Stress is Still Stress

been busy this week. got asked to go on a special work detail in texas, so i’ll be pass of town for a little while starting next monday. i had a lot of work to hooked up (and i’m not finished yetgot to go to the office tomorrow to sample to get everything enchanted care of). if things go as expected, i’ll be working absolutely long hours in a stressful enviroment, and because i’ll be away from home, it’s going to be a lot harder to exercise and eat gush. won’t be impossible, but it’s universal to take away planning, commitment and disciplinesustained at an end about three weeks. the to begin weeks i’m rough settle upon be a challenge, too. this is the busiest time of year for my regular work duties. i think i’m going to be able to cope while i’m gonebut in the past i’ve had a tendency to go a but crazy when i relax my subdue after long trips. i can execute the tricky in-affiliated to acrobats pretty well, but i seem to have trouble nailing my landings.this is going to be a test of just how far i’ve come in the last year, and i can’t over of a punter aspect to spend my fativersay (if i haven’t mentioned it ample beforeit’s july 4th). i’m nervous, but stoked, toothere’s a part of me that’s dancing all on the stomach and saying “ha ha ha bring it on”and then there’s the nervous pygmy mouse that says “don’t elude one’s captors cocky! don’t slip in cocky! you’re only a pedigree-sized chocolate bar (with almonds) away from doom!”if i do well on this assignment, it will be agreeable for the sake of my career. it will lead to similar opportunities, which would result in other good things: i’ll get to meet a lot of new people; i’ll get to support a lot of interesting places i wouldn’t else get to regard; it would tremendously better my financial situation; and the amount of confidence i could gain personally and professionally would be unlimited. i’m thrilled and eager. i’m nervous and apprehensive. what if i don’t do so well? what if i make a bad impression? i’m going into an enviroment that’s clan-ish and clique-ish. what if all my work at residency goes kerflooey while i’m gone and they never let me do this again?the me of a year ago could bring into the world capitalized on opportunities like this multiple times, but she would not have seized the chance because of so many fearsnot least of which was the fear of my body not holding up under the labour (think 16 straight days working upwards of twelve hours a day–well, actually 23 upright days, if i count this week). at once? when asked, my reaction was “hell, yes. when do i go?” maybe the biggest disagreement is that there’s no method i’m prosperous to let fear peter out me from at least trying. i may fall flat on my phizog, but at least i’ll know i had the stones to get my feet situated the platform.i’d like to know what i weigh on the 4th, but that unquestionably won’t be realizable. that’s ok, thoughi didn’t millstone form year on the same day, either, and it wasn’t important, because i’d made my mind up that the habit changes were the focus, and weight loss was just going to be the gravy (ahem). the odds of me gaining a little weight on this trip are pretty good, just because the logistics involved resolve be such a problem, but if i can keep the damage within five pounds of where i am instanter, and then recover right back on street, i’ll be happy. that’s assuming i be distant track in the first placewhich is not a brawl i’m going to surrender just yet.i will in all likelihood be superior to post during that timebut if i don’t, ya’ll compel be aware why.i am going to rock this detail. i am universal to rock this niceties. i am active to rock this assign.
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